scared

i was in tears, so i drove and didnt stop..

i couldnt turn around, i couldnt go home.

i had to just drive.

I wanted to get away, get away from

the hurt, get away from what could happen

i needed to be able to hear myself

breath.

I needed to think, i was zoned out.

i was in my own little world

driving through neighborhoods,

seeing guys with roses in there car

taking them home to there wife.

seeing couples walking down the sidewalks

hand in hand

i just wanted to scream i wanted to get out.

i couldnt look around no more.

i wanted to just close my eyes

and let all the pain out.

what did i do??

why do i do this to myself everytime

how do i always find a way to

mess things up.

why couldnt i take it back

why cant i change who i am.

questions racing through my head,

i wanted them to stop.

i was shaking i couldnt keep my

eyes on the road, i felt sick

my world was all turning upside down.

so fast.

and it was all my fault.

driving for hours.

not taking my foot off the pedal

the music taking over my thoughts.

i needed to be somewhere

that didnt remind me of him.

i needed to be away from my hometown

so i got out.

i wanted to run as far away as i could.

i got so far

and i never wanted to turn around.

i came to a point where i knew i had to go

back even though my head was telling me

not to i had to he kept texting and people

kept calling

i couldnt hide forever.

now i just wish i could take it back

and change what happened.

i want to be back out on the road

with only my music and car to

worry about i just want

to run away right now.