My perspective on this thing called life

I dont know what it is, but somehow

i always find a way to screw things up..

i do stupid little things that i never should

that screw up things with the people i love most.

tonight it was with the person that i couldnt

even imagine losing in my life, he is the most

important thing in my life. and the greatest

thing that has ever happened to me. he found

a text from me and my past talking about our

childhood love,, i dont know how to take that back

i dont know how to rewind time and never make

it happen, but i wish i could. it wasnt supposed

to happen like this.

and this is why im the # 1 person to mess things up

we had been talking about our past in 7th grade

and how happy we were and just talking memories

but what the person i love doesnt understand is its

my past, and there is a reason it is only my past and will

never be my future he is supposed to be my

future ..

I love this boy with all my heart and i cant lose him

but now i have him questioning our relationship

and feeling like he doesnt know if i think hes the one.

but i KNOW he is the one. i dont want anyone

else. I only want him.

I wish I could take this back.

I am sorry.

I love you.

So for everyone out there, dont let the past ruin your

future, move on from it and live with what you have.

don't look back on it and ruin what you have now.

because there is a reason the past didnt make it

to this point in your life.